these updates are going backwards. i realize i haven't said much about my two weeks in edmonton, but maybe that will come later.
for now, it is my duty to inform you all that i made the slam team b the other night!!! i'm both thrilled and stressed as i was considering backing out before the slam, because my plate is already loaded up. but once i finally stood up there as part of one of the teams, i changed my mind. it was pretty victorious as well, because after the second round (we only have two rounds in vancouver) i was tied with two others and we had to have a third round, which i owned and took the spot. i'm ecstatic to be on the team with trevor, emily and patrick as well, as i think we're gonna kick some high energy azz. i'm a little disappointed that sue wasn't the fourth, as i think that would have been an amazing combination, and i was wanting her to make the team more than i wanted myself to. she's such a wonderful lady, and the stuff she did that night made me weepy twice.
so here it is, day three of my new school life and i'm already unable to sleep for all the shit i've gotten myself into. no more commitments!
as much as i love the poetry, the purpose of this next four months is to get my degree. i'm okay with being busy as shit, but it's just so much easier to be busy as shit in one area, and not torn between three different areas of my life. so, no more shows til the winter. i've got a few over the next month or so with CFSW and related events, but that's it. i hope everyone understands. i guess me writing this in my LJ is my passive way of getting that news out. barbara facilitated a quick counselling session on the phone the other morning and convinced me that i can do this, and i hope she's right. oh my god i already have so much to do and school hasn't even gotten going yet. i need to get a day planner, maybe that will make me feel better.

commitments:
boyfriend
poets in schools program
slam team
CFSW
unsweetened and outspoken
3 classes

i'm taking some pretty cool classes though. my intro computer class is going to be boring and hellish, but i saw in the outline that we'd be spending alot of time working with MSWord and Excel, and that can't be bad. i'm also taking a children's literature class, which it seems like i'll be doing alot of debating in with the instructor. i already got into my first class wide argument today, and i mean more like fight than "argument." within the first day i already got labelled the angry feminist lesbian, but that's another story for another time. thirdly i'm taking a course on occidental religions. i had wanted to take the oriental religions class, but it was full. i then realized this is way cooler because i will no longer be one of those self procclaimed forward thinking queers who hates christians but doesn't totally understand why. the instructor is a total hippy flake, and i love her. i attended one of her lectures a few years ago and she's totally one of the people who inspired me to become a buddhist. we're going on two fieldtrips, one to a synagogue and the other on halloween night to a wiccan ceremony thing. nice!
evin is going to bed earlier than i am lately because of school, and i'm not getting in there to chant before i go to sleep, and it's making me kinda anxious. i need to do something calming before bed besides stare at this screen. goodnight.